that there’s always something that requires maintenance (and effort). For me, this means that my mind is always aware of the to do list and never gives (or gets) full permission to just be.
that even heavenly pleasure requires maintenance and effort
Enduring the false way that other people and I move through life
pretending to value and believe the false
needing to make small talk
that there’s no way in the realm of the manifest to be completely free of the effects of other people’s actions and decisions
Absolute truth is not found in stories, words, ego, person.
all of this flies in the face of what we’re led to believe by our minds (and our systems)
the conflict between being and doing never gets fully resolved in me. Some deeply ingrained attributes of mine are to clean, organize, maintain, attempt renunciation, pay off debts, avoid new debts and obligations, and self discipline.
For me, closure and ends are illusions.